Friday, July 1, 2016

Before he called himself Kylo (part 1)

            His innocent hazel eyes opened up to catch their first glimpse at the world he had just entered.  He took his first breath to fill his lungs and get his heart pumping.  His parents looked down upon him with such love and adoration that you would think that he was the first person they’d ever laid eyes on.  He was swaddled in a beautiful red blanket that he would never let go of.  His mother gently kissed his fragile forehead before uttering his name.  “Ben,” his mother choked out holding back the sobs of overwhelming joy, “Ben Jarvin Solo,”.
            Ben Solo was the new addition to the Solo family.  His uncle, Luke, was very excited to be Ben’s mentor once he was to come of age.  Not to mention Chewy who was excited to have a new friend.  The whole galaxy was celebrating the birth of Ben Jarvin Solo.  But the one who was most excited about the new life was Han, Ben’s overjoyed father.  Han spent countless hours preparing for his child.  From building a room for his beloved son, to arranging the plans for his education and training, and everything in between.  The one thing Han didn’t account for, was his marriage to Leia.  They would always bicker and squabble during the night, assuming Ben was fast asleep.  But Ben heard every word, every insult, every slanderous statement that his parents threw at each other.  Even at a young age, Ben always felt alone without his parents.  With their constant arguing it was hard to believe that his parents loved him.  How could they love him when it appeared that they didn’t even love each other?

            After Ben turned ten, he was already showing signs that he had the Force within him.  But one night, his magnificent abilities came to the surface like a bright firework of power!  Though, you may think that was a joyous event that would be celebrated, it was anything but.
It all happened when Ben was cowering in the dark corner of his room with his red blanket.  He tried not to cry, but the fear and hopelessness had built up so much in his innocent heart that he couldn’t hold back the many tears that were waiting to be shed.  Han and Leia were full-on fighting.  Loud shouts of insults and the sounds of angry feet stomping on the hard floor echoed in Ben’s ears.  He was sick of it.  The constant bickering between his parents had to stop, but what could he do?  He was only ten.  In that instant, Ben’s innocence broke.  He stood up, tall and strong as he wiped the remaining tears away from his blood-shot eyes.  His fists were clenched at his sides, his eyes were stern, and his heart was empty.  Ben gently sprawled his red blanket over his bed then marched out of his cold, barren room.  He stormed over to his warring parents.  “That’s enough,” Ben snapped sharply, interrupting the hurtful conversation between Han and Leia.  Han turned his head and stared at his son with a roaring fire of rage.  Within a few seconds, Han’s body turned to face Ben as well.  “What did you say?” Han spat with gritted teeth, but Ben did not falter, he stood firm.  “I said; that’s enough,” Ben repeated.  Han looked as if he was ready to explode like a hydrogen bomb, “is that any way to speak to your father?”.  Before Ben could respond, Leia rolled her eyes and grumbled, “like father like son,”.  With that, all hell had broken loose between Han and Leia,
“so this is all my fault?!”
“well you are his father!”
“how could he have learned that from me when you’re the one hanging around him all the time?!”
“I’m around him all the time because you’re never around for your own son!  He’s your flesh and blood, Han!”
Ben couldn’t take it anymore!  He tried to stand in between his parents move them away from each other, but to no avail.  Finally, with one mighty shove, Ben channeled his powers and used the Force to fling his parents into the walls of the room opposite of each other.  “STOP IT!” Ben shouted as dust and rubble flitted about the air.  Ben looked to either side of him only to realize that he had flung his parents through the walls of the house!  Chunks of furniture, roof, and wall were scattered haphazardly around the area.  Either parent was sitting in a pile of dust and dirt with chunks of wood and metal surrounding their persons.  “That’s enough,” Ben breathed.

            Ben was now fifteen and old enough to be Luke’s Padawan.  The incident that occurred when Ben discovered his powers with the Force had not been forgotten.  In fact, because of that, Han and Leia were ready to ship him off so they wouldn’t have to deal with him and his destructive ways with the Force.  As you would expect, Ben felt increasingly weak, alone, and helpless as time went by.  The emotional weight on Ben’s heart was almost unbearable, but his heart managed to stay beating with hope. Ben hugged his mother tightly before he left.  She didn’t hug back nearly as tightly.  See, Ben was embracing his mother.  It was a silent “I love you” to his mother.  Leia’s hug was merely physical contact, but it still had love behind it.  Leia was only protecting her own heart so she wouldn’t be as crushed when her son left.  As Ben embraced his father goodbye, Han embraced back just as intimately.  Both Han and Leia were devastated to see their adored son leave to go to a completely different planet.  As soon as Ben got on that ship, Han and Leia regretted their decision.  They couldn’t abandon their son in his time of need!  But it was too late now, ben and Luke were already in the sky and leaving the atmosphere of Bespin.  At that moment, Han and Leia had lost their son.

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            Years had passed by and Ben was at his full potential.  He had especially mastered Jedi mind tricks.  He had even figured out how to pull a person’s thoughts out of their heads to get information!  All at the age of twenty-three!  But still, Ben’s heart was empty.  He was now bitter and all hope had left his soul.  Ben had no more love in his heart.  He had disowned his family as they had abandoned him in his time of distress.  One night, as Ben lay awake in his bedroom, he was discovering who he had become.  “My father and mother have betrayed me,” Ben mumbled stroking his red baby blanket, “they have left me behind.  How could I be so foolish to think that they ever loved me?  They don’t even love each other!  I mean nothing to them.  So they mean nothing to me,”.  Ben sat up and lifted his lightsaber off of the shelf over his bed just above his head.  He turned it on and it emitted a bright, smooth, red glow.  A bubble of rage burst in Ben’s chest as he hurled his lightsaber across his room only for it to hit a wall.  Ben sighed in defeat then crawled over to his weapon leaving the red blanket of his bed.  He turned it on once again to make certain he didn’t bust it.  Instead of a smooth glow, it let out a beam of jagged, red light.  Almost like lightning.  Ben’s eyes widened but at the same time grew dark.  A wicked grin crept its way up Ben’s face before he muttered, “join the Dark side.  It’s where all of your power lies,”.

TO BE CONTINUED....

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